After my years of hiding any and all emotion, closing myself off to all things, there’s a woman that I have feelings for. She’s beautiful, kind, and yet quite feisty. A perfect combo. She also revealed, in a fit of anger with me, that she recently had a visit to the emergency room after a failed attempt at suicide. Surprising that the woman I may love is at such a low when she presents herself at an opposite to me. Social. Chipper. Though they do say that some of the most depressed hide it so well. Also an opposite as I don’t hide anything. I’ll let you know that I’m down. “Hey, buddy. Guess what I’m thinking about. Killing myself.” Laugh out loud.
Anyway. I hope she doesn’t kill herself. I know that she couldn’t care less about me, (I don’t either) but I think that she is amazing, and I hope that she finds whatever she needs to keep her going.